Life?

Another few days have passed since I wrote… This weekend, gotten a 4D winning of S$500… Ha ha… Hardly buy 4D… Just remembered how I went to buy 4D a year ago during this time in hope that I can get tickets for my friend to go USS.

Time really flies… 22-week IA is drawing to an end really soon. It’s a much needed break and I’m forever glad to have it. Feels more ready to talk up the remaining studies again. Just hope to maintain you current standing. Really hope to be able to come out to work soon… Saw my dad worrying about bringing in that income to make ends meet. With his injuried arm, he cannot fetch overtime… Really don’t like him to feel so bad. I know he worked hard for the family.

Hmm… Had a rather tiring day today… Didn’t really do a lot of things but just tired… Ha ha… But things are ending soon…

Ha ha… Time to catch some rest soon…

Random Sound Out

Time really passes fast… Next week will the the last week of my industrial attachment. Amazed at how fast these 22 weeks have gone.

Somehow, feel that I’m ready to take on the next academic challenge that awaits…

Frankly, still have a bit of empty feeling. Not too sure why, but seems to be lagging a motivation in life. But luckily, this feeling seems to subside when time is filled.

Perhaps, on this digital space, people see me as an emotional person. Just like to say that for the friendship I’m trying to mend, I didn’t realise it meant so much to me, though I have been cherishing it all the time. I still remember the times when I am with this friend of mine, and I can be just myself, telling her how I feel and it’s really comforting to speak to her. It’s also a great joy being able to share her moments of joy and times when she’s not so happy.

I’m fine but just writing out how my heart feels. Not too sure if my friend has a chance to read all these that I’ve wrote, but if she does, I just hope that she don’t feel uncomfortable about it… Just genuinely how I feel, and not wanting to be intrusive in any way.

Just like fate has it, seems like going about my daily life have events reminding me not to give up on this friendship amidst the stage that things are at. Again, I’m fine! Ha ha… It’s not about not moving on… Hmm… Living life like it used to be! But I think I’m just a sentimental sort…

Alright, always feels good writing out thoughts and feelings…

Being an Octopus & Others

Finally, IA’s coming to an end… Kind of not too sure how I can get back to the mood of studying. But think shouldn’t be too much of an issue since I rested long enough I guess, long enough for me to get things started…

FYP, minor and a national project… Seems like I’m always biting off more than I can choose… Hope history don’t repeat itself like last semester… Guess I’m just fated to be a worker… But this time, guess I’ll be able to perform better with a lightened heart…

Got teased at for going out with 3 of my course mates (females) by my IA mates… You know, at the back of my mind, was actually thinking of my friend…

Actually there are some things that I really want to ask her… Remember one night after movie, at the New Hong Kong Cafe near Esplanade, we had Mango Ice Shave, did she ask me if we’re… Stupid me stupid me… Perhaps it may just be too late… You know, just like those moments being with my friend… That’s 20 June 2011 and we watched Mr. Popper’s Penguins. Some time I am shocked at how well I remembered those moments… How I wish for a miracle to happen for these moments to be replayed… I’ll really grab the fate that comes by…

Can’t help but feel a tint of saddness… But well, can only hope for a miracle of some sort if someone up there can be kind enough… Really wondered if she remembers these moments like I do…

Well, just some memories…

Meanwhile, with the lightened heart, I approach the hurdles ahead…

Lightened Heart

I know I’ve tried… Felt sad to see the “bye” at the end… But after I told her how I really understand, I hope things will still take a turn for our friendship, to the chatty moments we once had… Just that chat when we ever see each other online (still secretly hoping).

Know I told her that I’m fond of her some time back. I don’t hide… Perhaps still is… But hope she understands that I know sometimes, things may not be possible… Really feel light hearted being able to clear things up (kind of). At least I hope she understands where I’m coming from and remove all the “walls” against me, to at least let me know her progression… Hope she understands that I have no intention to intrude. Just my genuine self, to be a genuine friend who cares…

Alright, perhaps I should stop disturbing her further… All the best!

**Guess this place will still be my secret emotional and stress outlet… Perhaps, also when I think about my friend…

Disappointed

Disappointed that my actions have gotten a friendship that I want to mend further and further away… Perhaps it’s just me… My actions that results in this…

Just wanted things to be simple and I really don’t have the intend to stalk… Was just trying to create some random topic that perhaps could start us talking… Always believed that friends should be more than just Facebook friends…

Perhaps, effort just really don’t pay off… I really don’t know what I could have done to make things better… Tried all things that can possibly come to my mind. Really disappointed…

Life’s Short

Came to know about the cab accident… Really feel very sad… For the cab driver… Just out there trying to earn a living, for the family… Makes me think of my dad, who got injuried recently while working, and a friend whom wanted to graduate quickly one year ago to work so she could relief the workload off her dad…

Sometimes, in the heat of the moment, we do reckless stuff, which may hurt innocent people around… Somehow, the thought of the cab driver and more, the family keep getting stuck in my mind… This incident makes me ever more, wanting to graduate so that my dad can retire… Riding more that 100km on a bike everyday, rain or shine, just to make ends meet…

Life is really short and we won’t know what happens the next day… Sometimes, we just have to do what our hearts desire, for we may not have a chance to do so, perhaps just in the next moment…

Just also on my mind… The friend whom I want very much to be able to talk to again… I believe, one day, it’ll still happen… Hope that my sincerity may be felt by Those above and her…

《回忆》追寻者

往往，当许多事都变成了回忆我们才懂得去珍惜。

快乐的回忆也许是简单的坐在咖啡厅里聊天，一起看场电影，或是一起赶最后一趟列车。

快乐的回忆一点都不复杂。

当有一天，有人，无论是朋友或﹏﹏﹏，可让你去关怀，当而可在关怀时带给自己快乐，那也许是在你生命中重要的人。。。